Wonder and Jealous

Officially today I wonder and be jealous. Good! It means my heart is alive. I can fall in love again. I have a nice dream in love.

I met someone who I forget when officially I and him know each other. Suddenly I realize he is to be my friend in my Facebook. I really forget when I add him, or he added me first. But I think I add him because I want to get coverage something when I was be a reporter.

One day in middle of 2011, I was making a polling about something. And I think I chose him as one of my responders, but he forget to answer, in advance he said he want to answer my polling when he is in affice. At the time, he was going to office. And then, I forget and I think so did he. Nextime, he say hello to discuss something. And then, I know him more. But, at the time, I have relationship with massanto, so I dont really want to know about someone else. halah. Gitu deh akibatnya orang setia, suka gak tengok kanan kiri. hehe. But it is Ok. And then, I really meet him, he is an inspiring person. Kenapa gak dari dulu ya, komunikasi intens sama dia. I means I should learn more about my dream from him. Masa sih? Pokoknya gitu deh. Di mataku dia hebat. Terus kalau hebat, kenapa? I like him gitu? Doh, mudah amat aku jatuh cinta, ya gak secepat gitu. I means I just I really terkesan dengan sosoknya. I think sometimes I remember about him. Haha, aku bakal muter-muter menjelaskannya nih.

Finally, today I read something. And several days ago, I found a sentence that make me be jealous. Today too. Oh my God, Should I gotta go my own way?

Okay deh. I dont wanna hurt my own heart. So, I should face the pain today. Trying to don't think more about him. Ikhlaskan. Haha. Oke oke..